Up until this point, my blog has been a surface overview of my life in London, well, not so much my life but the things I've done since being in London. My experiences have been amazing and memorable to say the least. From my Masters courses to my sister's visit to riding a Boris bike, I dutifully described what I have been doing but not much more than a bland explanation of the activities.
One thing my Masters study has taught me is to think further, to not accept what is given and to constantly question what is presented. I am on a quest. I came to graduate school and to London in an effort to figure my life out, to figure out the next step which seemed constantly out of my reach because of my age or lack of experience or lowly Bachelors degree. Everyone piques at different times in his or her life and in many ways I had enjoyed where I was at in mine prior to coming back to school. I was healthy, active and spending loads of time with friends. But I also knew there was more for me.
So, here I am, working toward finishing my Masters by writing my dissertation and I feel as though I need to re-evaluate myself, from who I am and how I define myself to where I'm going professionally. One of the hardest challenges in life is to put yourself out there, open to critique and criticism. Here is where my quest comes in, to ask myself the tough questions and by doing it on my blog I feel as though I am holding myself accountable. It's so easy to say I'll do something and blow it off.
My biggest frustration and challenge at the moment is that I have reverted back to my eating habits of when I was growing up, without moderation. I was in the best shape of my life just a year ago and now I can't seem to get out of my funk. Little exercise and massive food intake. Every day is a new day and it's hard not to think, oh I've already blown it for the day, why not just eat what I want? My lack of energy is surely affecting my desire to change my habits but I feel lethargic all the time. I don't want to wait until tomorrow to start. I need to start right now. And it doesn't mean cutting out everything I love to eat, but it does mean cutting back and little by little enforcing moderation. I will have this challenge my entire life and making sure I keep tabs on it will certainly help down the road.
I look forward to being open and honest with myself about my personal challenges and hopefully by sharing them here, on my personal blog I can avoid those pesky therapy bills. Wish me luck!
One thing my Masters study has taught me is to think further, to not accept what is given and to constantly question what is presented. I am on a quest. I came to graduate school and to London in an effort to figure my life out, to figure out the next step which seemed constantly out of my reach because of my age or lack of experience or lowly Bachelors degree. Everyone piques at different times in his or her life and in many ways I had enjoyed where I was at in mine prior to coming back to school. I was healthy, active and spending loads of time with friends. But I also knew there was more for me.
So, here I am, working toward finishing my Masters by writing my dissertation and I feel as though I need to re-evaluate myself, from who I am and how I define myself to where I'm going professionally. One of the hardest challenges in life is to put yourself out there, open to critique and criticism. Here is where my quest comes in, to ask myself the tough questions and by doing it on my blog I feel as though I am holding myself accountable. It's so easy to say I'll do something and blow it off.
My biggest frustration and challenge at the moment is that I have reverted back to my eating habits of when I was growing up, without moderation. I was in the best shape of my life just a year ago and now I can't seem to get out of my funk. Little exercise and massive food intake. Every day is a new day and it's hard not to think, oh I've already blown it for the day, why not just eat what I want? My lack of energy is surely affecting my desire to change my habits but I feel lethargic all the time. I don't want to wait until tomorrow to start. I need to start right now. And it doesn't mean cutting out everything I love to eat, but it does mean cutting back and little by little enforcing moderation. I will have this challenge my entire life and making sure I keep tabs on it will certainly help down the road.
I look forward to being open and honest with myself about my personal challenges and hopefully by sharing them here, on my personal blog I can avoid those pesky therapy bills. Wish me luck!
